It's D-Day, bitches!!!!

I discarded my Narcissist a little over 7 months ago.  It was a bittersweet experience for me. I cried. I cried A LOT.  Sometimes I cried at the grocery store. Sometimes I cried when I was doing laundry.  I cried my first Taco Tuesday. I cried the first time I cooked a meal for 7…

Healing is Messy

I am 7 months into my healing process and I have to remind myself daily that its not an easy process.  You see, I’m not healing from my last relationship, or the one before that….I am healing from every relationship I have ever had.  I am having to rewire my brain to get rid of…

This is Gonna SUCK.

So I took a little break.  I’ll share my experiences with you guys soon but I mean, basically I’ve been traveling, working and trying to get my shit together.   Well, it’s the night before Thanksgiving and I’m all alone.  I can’t stand the idea of being around other people because this is not normal for…

The Pure Fuckedupness of Devaluation

After that amazingly addictive love bombing stage where you are made to believe that your friendly neighborhood carefully masked narcissist has found their soulmate in you, shit starts to go south…and fast.   I remember the beginning of my devaluation stage with my husband.  We were having a discussion about him telling his estranged children “the…

Broken and Beautiful

Get ready y’all….this is gonna be a bumpy ride.  I’m suffering from C-PTSD as a result of narcissistic abuse.  Side note: I definitely pissed someone off with that last sentence but, I gotta speak my truth.  I’ve been keeping busy to avoid it but that isn’t necessarily helping. My abusers broke my mind so badly…

Turning Tables – An Adele Remix

I’m on the subway listening to Adele because Adele is life and nobody is gonna tell me any different.  Ok, I digress…The song Turning Tables came up in the shuffle. The lyrics in this song so concisely describe my relationship with my husband and the cycle of abuse that I dealt with the entire course…

Love the Way You Lie

Now I can sit here and tell y’all all the lies I’ve been told by the men I’ve loved in my life but legitimately who has that kinda time?!? Like…it would take me hours…maybe even days. So instead, I’m going to tell you how toxic people get away with lies. They’re gonna hate me for…