Red Velvet Cheesecake Brownies

I hate baking y’all….I mean I HATE BAKING Y’ALL!!!  So I do a cute little thing I called “Fakin’ Bakin’”.  I call it “Fakin’ Bakin’” because instead of doing everything from scratch, I leverage cake mixes, Bisquick, store bought pie crust…hell, whatever gets me through the baking process without me having to throw the whole…

This Aint No Podcast

Full disclosure……My best friend has a Podcast.  When I got out of my abusive marriage he told me he’d love to have me on to talk about toxic relationships.  He realized that there was a definite need in our community to educate young people about mental, emotional and physical abuse.  I wasn’t the least bit…

Plot Twist – Self Isolation Edition

Well…..here we are.  In self-isolation. FML Who knew that after celebrating the freedom of divorcing an abusive narcissist the universe would force me to sit my ass down somewhere and focus on me with absolutely no end date in sight.  I would be lying if I told you it was easy. It’s not. Is it…

Surviving the Coronavirus Without a Quarantine BAE

I don’t know about you guys but I am freaking out about this social distancing shit.  Coronavirus is a whole hot mess and I don’t want to catch it. I mean, I’m socially awkward AF right now to be sure but like, I also get bored and lonely especially if I can’t hang out with…

How I Avoided a Potential Dumpster Fire of Emotional Hot Messery

Have you ever really liked someone but you knew damn well they were trouble?  This happened to me recently. Hardest shit EVER. I knew that I would fall hard for this guy.  I knew it. Every nerve ending in my body was telling me to run. The chemistry was too good. We were talking constantly…

It’s D-Day, bitches!!!!

I discarded my Narcissist a little over 7 months ago.  It was a bittersweet experience for me. I cried. I cried A LOT.  Sometimes I cried at the grocery store. Sometimes I cried when I was doing laundry.  I cried my first Taco Tuesday. I cried the first time I cooked a meal for 7…

Healing is Messy

I am 7 months into my healing process and I have to remind myself daily that its not an easy process.  You see, I’m not healing from my last relationship, or the one before that….I am healing from every relationship I have ever had.  I am having to rewire my brain to get rid of…

This is Gonna SUCK.

So I took a little break.  I’ll share my experiences with you guys soon but I mean, basically I’ve been traveling, working and trying to get my shit together.   Well, it’s the night before Thanksgiving and I’m all alone.  I can’t stand the idea of being around other people because this is not normal for…

The Pure Fuckedupness of Devaluation

After that amazingly addictive love bombing stage where you are made to believe that your friendly neighborhood carefully masked narcissist has found their soulmate in you, shit starts to go south…and fast.   I remember the beginning of my devaluation stage with my husband.  We were having a discussion about him telling his estranged children “the…

Broken and Beautiful

Get ready y’all….this is gonna be a bumpy ride.  I’m suffering from C-PTSD as a result of narcissistic abuse.  Side note: I definitely pissed someone off with that last sentence but, I gotta speak my truth.  I’ve been keeping busy to avoid it but that isn’t necessarily helping. My abusers broke my mind so badly…